From 5 back to 4

Today I feel all "gived" out.   I feel as though I have given all I have left in me, and now I'm coming up empty.   We were informed today that Z's timeline is moving forward much more quickly than we were led to believe. I want him to spend Christmas with us. But

7 reasons why your mommy friend doesn’t have time

If you've been on social media for any length of time, you've probably seen this newspaper article a time or two:       It popped up in my feed this morning. I liked it, then started commenting. And commenting. And commenting. Really, I wasn't commenting anymore. I was writing a commentary.   So here's what

The REAL reason I scarfed down my kid’s Oreo blizzard at the YMCA (like a crazy lady)

Today could have been an ordinary day.   It had all the makings of one.   It took us 3 hours to leave the house. My kids ate so many snacks, I wished I had just fixed them a homemade,  5-course dinner (I'm convinced that would have been faster.) By 9 am, my 3-year-old had

You are brave

    "You are brave," my friend said. I didn't believe her. But she told me again, "You are brave."       It's been a whole week now. And as I sit in the waiting room at my OB's office (otherwise known as the 9th circle of hell), watching swollen pregnant bellies pass in

Pregnancy 6, Loss 5, Day 4

I woke up this morning feeling a little crampy, as though I needed to use the restroom. No spotting when I wiped. Phew!! But later in the day, at play practice, my body started to feel like it would begin its period. Dull crampiness. As soon as I had a break on stage, I beelined