Happy Valentine’s Day to my husband after loss & infertility

That you have seen me at my absolute worst, and still loved me, still wanted me. That you proved you were in this through thick and thin, through life and through death.

  • If grief doesn't always look like grief -- what does it look like?

When grief doesn’t look like grief

Sometimes sadness looks like anger. Sometimes depression looks like numbness. Sometimes anxiety looks like underwhelm. Sometimes acceptance looks like staying put and not moving on. Sometimes loss looks like love. Sometimes self-preservation looks like fear. Sometimes joy feels like betrayal. Sometimes moving forward means taking steps back. Sometimes you feel it all.   Sometimes you

  • 6 things you do differently in pregnancy after loss

6 Things You Do Differently in Pregnancy After Loss

Pregnancy comes with a lot of expectations. From home pregnancy tests to routine prenatal care to baby showers, expecting moms often breeze through these milestones with ease. Sure there are the heartburn complaints and the swollen feet to deal with ... But most pregnant women expect their pregnancy to be normal. And you know what?

If someone looks like they have it easier, just give it some time

My best friend is going through something crazy, horribly hard. I reflect back upon the years in which I struggled with my fertility, and she popped out two kids back to back without any struggle at all. And as much as I loved her, I questioned "why me?" "Why do some people have it so easy

6 things you absolutely need when you parent a child after loss

Pregnancy after loss was a mind game. But I thought once she was out, once she was pink and breathing, once my body had successfully sustained her life right into my arms, then I would be able to finally exhale. That was true for all of about 20 minutes.  And then came the realization that